Monday, February 21, 2011

A Lack of Faith??

Oh Goddess, I miss blogging!! I've been away for far too long and it's not because I didn't want to be (or my internet bill didn't get behind), I have been experiencing a HUGE struggle with my faith this past year. I think I can trace it back to about this time last year when I was depressed about not finding work. I just didn't feel like doing Sabbat rituals or workings. Then I found a job, but at the time didn't realize it was a bad choice for a job. I was working at a hair salon on straight commission, I thought if I did that it would force me to find a clientele. After 9 months working there and not making much money, I left and found a new job. But money was short, bills got left by the wayside as I struggled to get myself caught up. Because of this, my faith took a backseat. I tried to go to public rituals, feasts, but my heart wasn't in it, so I stopped going. I shut myself away from my local Pagan groups and from some Pagans who I really didn't want to associate myself with anymore. The stress of money problems, witch wars, etc, I cut myself off and focused on one thing that actually made me smile throughout all this.

When I woke up this morning, I realized that I needed to make a change in my life, my spiritual life. I'm going to practice my faith my way. Not with what books or fellow Pagans say how I should. I do things a little unconventional, not the norm and I don't add New Age things into my practice. I may not blog as much as I used to (let me get out of my funk first) but I do hope you read it when I do. I also posted today about a meditation I had last week on my Rowan's Deities page.

3 comments:

Dark Mother said...

"I'm going to practice my faith my way." That's what it's all about Sister. A person's Spirituality is about as personal as something can be. You will find with this new relationship a whole new form of Spiritual growth.

GreenWheel said...

Wow. I am glad I read your post. As you may know from reading GreenWitchWays - I too have had issues. I have been reminded by your post and DarkMother's comment: "I'm going to practice my faith my way. Not with what books or fellow Pagans say how I should. A person's Spirituality is about as personal as something can be. You will find with this new relationship a whole new form of Spiritual growth." I need to remember this every time I feel down.

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