Wednesday, March 3, 2010
So, I'm sitting here looking at my calendar and thinking that is was a year ago that I started this blog. In that year, so many wonderful things have happened to me on my journey. I found my focus of where I want to go and I am on my way of getting there. Even my blog has gone through some changes as I do. I'm not just talking about my monthly background changes, either. I started this blog, doing pretty much copying & pasting info I found off the net, it wasn't really personal. Then, slowly, it started changing to reflect what was going on with me. I stared writing about things that were relevant to me, I added 2 extra pages as references. I don't really update my deities page unless I have an amazing encounter I feel I have to share, that is my personal page saved for them. My BOS page is getting there with things I have made, spell workings that are (somewhat) harmless, meditations, chants. This, my main page is me. It is my way of showing you who I am, where I've been, & where I'm going. This is what brings me peace when things get hectic in life. I enjoy adding widgets, slideshows, musings. I also love switching up backgrounds to reflect the seasons.
In the last year, I found out what it is to be Pagan. I learned this the hard way be letting myself be swayed to what another wanted me to be. I learned that you don't deceive people in the Ways of the Goddess, to do workings on those you dislike just for the hell of it or cuz they pissed you off. I learned that the way you have your altar set up is a reflection of your relationship to your Deities, there is no wrong way to set it up, so don't go fix things on my altar. I learned what a real mentor is as oppossed to someone who likes having a power trip over someone who may not know as much.
In this past year, I have met & made connections in my local Pagan community. I have also made some new friendships with some of these connections. I attend public rituals, as a compliment to my own solitary rites at home. I have also just started a Pagan social group that is in its infancy. We have lots of ideas to work out and hopefully things will be good. It is not your traditional type group, this is meant to be a group where we can get together and have a good time, a few laughs, etc. As this group progresses, I'll keep you posted about it. With my new Pagan friends, we go on what we like to call "mini Pagan roadtrips" to different Pagan shops in our area and beyond. We go to the crafts stores to get supplies to decorate our altars, tools for the Sabbats and sometimes we just hang out. This is what gave me the idea of starting my own Pagan group, as well as one of the groups I am involved with in the city always bitching that no one goes to their meetings.
This has been definitely a year of experiences.. From meeting new friends, to letting go of those who weren't in my best interest, to finding love then letting it go when it wasn't becoming conducive to my growth. To being exposed to different Pagan music that I never thought I would listen to. Best of all, is seeing how many people follow my blog. I looked the other night on Facebook, through their blog app, I have 140 followers and through Google I have 54...that's not incl those who follow the other 2 pages I have. That's a total of 194 people following my musings. For that I say "THANK YOU!!" You are what makes me want to blog.
Brightest Blessings to you all,